Hatred

Now I got this weird topic for the post..

I really don't know.. but I'm sure that's what I feel right now..

Let me ask you all something.. what would you do when hatred builds up inside you?

How would you let off the steam? Tch, I already went for the straight point.. oh well..

Hatred.. intense feeling of dislike.. sounds like an anger; too.. It's always associated with negative issues.. well yeah, of course since hatred doesn't lead us to good thing.. Um.. wait, my other self told me that not all hatred leads to bad things for a reason.. I wonder about that.. she said that, "hatred is one of our inevitable emotion, but we can avoid it.."
 
Wait....
Avoid it?

Just like that..
....... just like that?

I'm trying not to be philosophical but, damn.. I can't help with it..

Hatred, from what I can say.. it's like a pain due to an external cause.. something that cannot be defined, something so bad that feels like irreducible feeling..

D'uh.. never mind, I think I've stated something so complicated.. even I couldn't fathom it..

Back to the point.. it's not just recently.. but always, the entire life of mine, I felt it..

This.. hatred feeling, inside of me.. have been a resident living inside of me..

Sigh.. I sounded like an emotional, idiotic person.. well at least it's true.......

My best friend always told & advice me not to keep the hatred feeling inside of me for a long time, cuz it will turn into grudges.. well, it did.... I'm feeling it.. it hurts..

I feel hatred to anyone..
Parent..
Friends..
Love.. yeah, sure I would feel that way too even though it's love.. hatred....
Except for one.. no, two.. yea.. there's two, that I can't let that feeling of hatred to.... One is for sure and the other one, I just can't.. there's no reason I should..

This feeling of hatred.. I wish it could be turned into something else..
Maybe despair.. or sadness....
That's better....
Yea, that's just better....

I hate this life of mine, again....
Yea, I never liked it from the beginning.......

Tears flowing out from my eyes when I finished writing this..




Reality.. or illusion....

Friendship

One topic that I always like to talk about, yet it hurts so much to say.. it fucking hurts to talk about it.. It came up to my mind just a few seconds ago after I read something from my friends' message.. It hurts to know it,  I wish I didn't see it..

I wonder, if I'm such an annoying friend to them..

If so, just say it straight to my face and not to say it to the others!!

You're spreading it to the others that I'm annoying? Fuck with that!

I don't care if you think I'm annoying little brat or anything, but trying to humiliate me like that is unforgiva- Wait.. So I do care about it.... shit....

D'uh, but it's not like I really give a damn about it though.. Cuz I've used to it.. I've been through it so many times.. countless times, to be honest..

This body have been stabbed, slashed, sliced, ripped.. with so many things..

Bleeding too much, blood flowing from every part of this body and it will never stop..

I don't care.. though it hurts, like infinite blades impaling through my body..

Tch, I just realized someone just joined that bitch to added more salt into this wound of mine..

Honestly, it hurts.. and at times, I don't care about it, yet at the same time I do care about it..

Why do I feel so irritated with it..

The post title is about friendship, yet I'm babbling about something else..
~sore nitsuite nani ka ga kankeidakedo ne~

Sigh.. let's continue..

Honestly, if you think I'm crazy right now, stop reading this.. It won't mean anything for you.. Trust me, I'm sane.. and at the same time, I'm insane;crazy.. YES.

Friendship.. I always remember this one line..

"A friend in need is a friend indeed", but hell with that.. that's just illusion..

If it's true.. then why there's still so much intense dislike in this self of mine?

The more I think about it, the crazier I would be..

I guess this is the reason why I never had many friends to begin with..

Though to say that, I was just being careful.. I don't wanna get hurt.. neither hurting anyone..

It's like, eternal pain affliction.. no, never mind..

Friendship.... I wonder what's the true meaning of it.. I still couldn't find the answer..

Friends helps you when you're in trouble.. friend are someone you could depends on..

Friendship.. between it could also be a backstabber for us right? Whenever we don't know anything, they start talking behind our back..

My other self just told me.. "Friend, is what you value.. and they are people who equal in most, any standards; but still respect each others.."

Yea.. I felt it in my skin, in my instincts, in my intuition.. but I'm still doubting myself.. and I kept repeating the question to myself..

"Friendship.. was is it?" and there I had the thought of something like "that's just overwhelming lies, though it's fair, within illusionary.."

Bonds are easily broken, but damn difficult to build it back.. I guess..

I did realize.. all what I've wrote until now is like a child's lettering..

Must be tedious for you to read, right?

Well, I just wanna let out this feeling.. that's all..

And actually I realized that there's a lot, and I mean by A LOT of mistakes in this post.. especially vocab and grammar.. I feel like a 7 years old brat right now..

To sum it all up, what I wanted to say is.. I hate friendship.... I fucking hate it..
Tch, just curse and more curses.. can't think rationally.. lots of f words..
Is this really me?

Friendship..


Let's stop this right now, I make no sense for everything I did write.. all doesn't make any sense.. friendship.. was is it, really?


Reality.. or illusion....

Seiyuu

It's been about a month I haven't touched up my blog.. been busy with this messy life..

Don't know what's really gotten into my mind..

Well, um.. I guess sometimes I should talk about something.. normal.. yeah..

For these past few posts.... uh, I mean, all the posts before this.. are more to dark/negative side..

Let's talk something.. um.... about.. something.. uh....

A-anyway! Let's just talk about something, okay? Watashi, kono yona baka, da you ne?

I love anime, and always enjoy watching it~ at times, I always had interest with the seiyuu that voiced the characters in the anime..

You may notice that you hear a familiar voices from different characters in different anime..

Like, for example~ Anime Code Geass and Working!!

You might realized that Lelouch's voice sounds similar with Takanashi.. desu~

It's Jun Fukuyama~ while he's not in Geass mode, his voice was kinda carefree and funny..

Try watch Working!! episode 9~ It is funny how Jun Fukuyama did the "feminine voice" for the cross-dressing Takanashi.. and you'll be questioning yourself to know how Lelouch's "feminine voice" would be.. uh, well.. not really, I guess....

Well, anyway.. here's the list of my favourite male & female seiyuu's..


Daisuke Ono

11eyes as Kakeru Satsuki

Air as Yukito Kunisaki

Betrayal Knows My Name as Hotsuma Renjou

Brave 10 as Saizo Kirigakure

Dantalian No Shoka as Hugh Anthony Disward

Dragonaut: The Resonance as Jin Kamishina

Durarara!! as Shizuo Heiwajima

Kuroshitsuji as Sebastian Michaelis

Pandora Hearts as Jack Vessalius

Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu as Itsuki Koizumi

Umineko No Naku Koro Ni as Ushiromiya Battler

Working!! as Jun Satou


Hiroshi Kamiya

Angel Beats! as Yuzuru Otonashi

Ao No Exorcist as Pheles Mephisto

Arakawa Under The Bridge as Kou Ichinomiya

Bakemonogatari as Koyomi Araragi

Durarara!! as Izaya Orihara

Honey & Clover as Yuuta Takemoto

Mobile Suit Gundam 00 as Tieria Erde

Monochrome Factor as Kengo Asamura

Natsume Yuujinchou as Takashi Natsume

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei as Itoshiki Nozomu

Starry Sky as Miyaji Ryunosuke

Working!! as Hiroomi Souma


Jun Fukuyama

Ao No Exorcist as Yukio Okumura

Betrayal Knows My Name as Tsukumo Murasame

Busou Renkin as Mutou Kazuki

Code Geass as Lelouch Lamperouge

Durarara!! as Shinra Kishitani

Kuroshitsuji as Grell Sutcliff

MM! as Taro Sado

Nurarihyon No Mago as Nura Rikuo

Princess Princess as Tooru Kouno

Spice & Wolf as Kraft Lawrence

Working!! as Souta Takanashi

xxxHOLiC as Kimihiro Watanuki


Souichirou Hoshi

Betrayal Knows My Name as Yuki Sakurai

Break Blade as Rygart Arrow

Gensomaden Saiyuki as Son Goku

GetBackers as Kazuki Fuuchoin

Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni as Keiichi Maebara

Marchen Awakens Romance as Alviss

Mirmo Zibang! as Kaoru Matsutake

Mobile Suit Gundam Seed as Kira Yamato

Onegai Teacher as Kei Kusanagi

Princess Princess as Akira Sakamoto

Sengoku Basara as Sanada Yukimura

Sora No Otoshimono as Tomoki Sakurai


Akira Ishida

Betrayal Knows My Name as Kanata Wakamiya

Chrono Crusade as Chrno

D.N Angel as Satoshi Hiwatari

Elemental Gelade as Coud "Cou" Van Giruet

Gensomaden Saiyuki as Cho Hakkai

Gintama as Katsura Kotarou

Mirai Nikki as Akise Aru

Mobile Suit Gundam Seed as Athrun Zala

Naruto as Gaara

Pandora Hearts as Xerxes Break

Spiral as Eyes Rutherford

Starry Sky as Kotarou Hoshizuki


Tomokazu Sugita

Arakawa Under The Bridge as Hoshi

Bokurano as Yamura Daiichi

Chobits as Hideki Motosuwa

Danshi Koukousei No Nichijou as Tabata Hidenori

Gintama as Sakata Gintoki

Honey & Clover as Takumi Mayama

Kanon as Yuuichi Aizawa

Shuffle! as Rin Tsuchimi

Sket Dance as Usui Kazuyoshi

Starry Sky as Nanami Kanata

Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu as Kyon

Togainu No Chi as Keisuke


Nobuhiko Okamoto

Ao No Exorcist as Rin Okumura

Code:Breaker as Oogami Rei

Kaichou wa Maid-sama! as Takumi Usui

Kamisama Dolls as Kuga Kyouhei

Persona -trinity soul- as Shin Kanzato

Sekaiichi Hatsukoi as Kisa Shouta

Shukufuku No Campanella as Leicester Maycraft

Sola as Yorito Morimiya

The Sacred Blacksmith as Luke Ainsworth

To Aru Majutsu No Index as Accelerator

Yumeiro Patissiere as Kashino Makoto

Yumekui Merry as Fujiwara Yumeji


Atsushi Abe

Another as Sakakibara Kouichi

Blood-C as Tomofusa Itsuki

B Gata H Kei as Takashi Kosuda

Bakuman as Moritaka Mashiro

Cardfight!! Vanguard as Ren Suzugamori

Goulart Knights as Aoi Hokuto

Kaichou wa Maid-sama! as Hinata Shintani

Shugo Chara! as Kukai Souma

Tatakau Shisho - The Book of Bantorra as Rithly Charon

To Aru Majutsu No Index as Touma Kamijyo

Xam'd Lost Memories as Akiyuki Takehara


Yuuichi Nakamura

Basquash! as Iceman Hotty

Break Blade as Hodr

Clannad as Tomoya Okazaki

Dance In The Vampire Bund as Akira Kaburagi Regendorf

Fairy Tail as Gray Fullbuster

Guilty Crown as Gai Tsutsugami

Kimi No Todoke as Ryuu Sanada

Ore No Imouta Ga Konnani Kawaii Wake Ga Nai as Kyousuke Kousaka

Sekaiichi Hatsukoi as Yoshiyuki Hatori

Shugo Chara! as Ikuto Tsukiyomi

Starry Sky as Kazuki Shiranui

Zettai Karen Children as Kouichi Minamoto


Miyano Mamoru

Death Note as Light Yagami

Durarara!! as Masaomi Kida

Mobile Suit Gundam 00 as Setsuna F. Seiei

Ouran Highschool Host Club as Tamaki Suoh

Soul Eater as Death The Kid

Starry Sky as Shiki Kagurazaka

Steins;Gate as Okabe Rintarou

Uta No Prince Sama Maji Love 1000% as Tokiya Ichinose

Vampire Knight as Zero Kiryuu

Wolf's Rain as Kiba


Tomokazu Seki

Blade Of The Immortal as Manji
Fruits Basket as Sohma Kyo
Fullmetal Panic as Sagara Sousuke
Genshiken as Souichiro Tanaka
Giant Killing as Takeshi Tatsumi
Mobile Suit Gundam Seed as Yzak Joule
Nodame Cantabile as Shinichi Chiaki
Persona 4 The Animation as Kanji Tatsumi
Steins;Gate as Itaru Hashida


Junichi Suwabe

07-Ghost as Frau
DearS as Hirofumi Nonaka

Dragonaut: The Resonance as Gio

Fate/Stay Night as Archer

Fullmetal Alchemist as Greed

Highschool Of The Dead as Takashi Komuro

Kuroshitsuji as Undertaker
Mobile Suit Gundam Seed as Sting Oakley

Nabari No Ou as Shimizu Raikou
Rental Magica as Ren Nekoyashiki

Shakugan No Shana as Friagne Kariudo
Uta No Prince Sama Maji Love 1000% as Ren Jinguuji


Kenichi Suzumura

Danshi Koukousei No Nichijou as Yoshitake Tanaka
D.Gray-Man as Lavi

Digimon Frontier as Kouichi Kimura

Gintama as Okita Sougo
Hanbun No Tsuki Ga Noboru Sora as Yuuichi Ezaki
Kara No Kyoukai as Mikiya Kokutou

Mobile Suit Gundam Seed Destiny as Shinn Asuka
Ouran Highschool Host Club as Hitachiin Hikaru

Spiral as Ayumu Narumi
Umineko No Naku Koro Ni as Ushiromiya George
Uta No Prince Sama Maji Love 1000% as Masato Hijirikawa
Zombie Loan as Chika Akatsuki


Hino Satoshi
Asette No Houkou as Hiro Iokawa
Bakuman as Akito Takagi
Ikkitousen as Koukin Shuyuu
Kimikiss Pure Rouge as Kouichi Sanada
Mayo Chiki! as Sakamichi Kinjirou
Nabari No Ou as Kouichi Aizawa
Naruto Shippuden as Sai
Shakugan No Shana as Yuuji Sakai
Tayutama Kiss On My Deity as Yuuri Mito
Zero No Tsukaima as Hiraga Saito


Majima Junji
Goshushou-sama Ninomiya-kun as Shungo Ninomiya
Hanasaku Iroha as Tohru Miyagishi
Hidan No Aria as Tohyama Kinji
Kannazuki No Miko as Souma Oogami
Kodomo No Jikan as Daisuke Aoki
Kore Wa Zombie Desu Ka? as Ayumu Aikawa
Nana To Kaoru as Kaoru Sugimura
Shugo Chara! as Yuu Nikaido
Toradora! as Ryuuji Takasu


Hiro Shimono
Baka To Test To Shoukanjuu as Akihisa Yoshi
Basquash! as Dan JD
Ben-To as You Satou
Dragon Crisis! as Ryuuji Kisaragi
Kami Nomi Zo Shiru Sekai as Keima Katsuragi
Nagasarete Airantou as Ikuto Touhouin
Special A as Tadashi Karino
Uta No Prince Sama Maji Love 1000% as Shou Kurusu
Yosuga No Sora as Haruka Kasugano


Miyuki Sawashiro

Black Rock Shooter as Yomi Takanashi
CANAAN as Canaan
Dantalian No Shoka as Dalian

Di Gi Charat as Petite Charat

Durarara!! as Celty Sturluson

Galaxy Angel as Mint Blancmanche

Goshusho-sama Ninomiya-kun as Reika Houjou

Highschool Of The Dead as Saeko Busujima

Rozen Maiden as Shinku

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei as Maria Tarou Sekiutsu

Tegami Bachi as Lag Seeing

Uta No Prince Sama Maji Love 1000% as Haruka Nanami


Nana Mizuki

Blood-C as Saya Kisaragi

Darker Than Black as Misaki Kirihara

Dog Days as Ricotta Elmar

Elemental Gelade as Cisqua

Fullmetal Alchemist as Wrath (Brotherhood as Lan Fan)

Kuroshitsuji II as Alois Trancy

Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha as Fate Testarossa

Naruto as Hinata Hyuuga

Rosario + Vampire as Moka Akayashi

Shugo Chara! as Utau Hoshina

Tales Of Symphonia as Colette Brunel

White Album as Rina Ogata


Rina Satou

Amagami SS as Kaoru Tanamachi

Bamboo Blade as Satori Azuma

Brave 10 as Isanami

Even No Jikan as Nagi

Mahou Sensei Negima! as Negi Springfield

Maria Watches Over Us as Tsutako Takeshima

Minami-Ke as Haruka Minami

Mayoi Neko Overrun! as Satou

Nogizaka Haruka No Himitsu as Shiina Amamiya

To Aru Kagaku No Railgun as Misaka Mikoto

Umineko No Naku Koro Ni as Ushiromiya Ange

Yondemasu Yo Azazel-san as Rinko Sakuma


Hanazawa Kana

Angel Beats! as Kanade Tachibana

Ao No Exorcist as Shiemi Moriyama

Black Rock Shooter as Mato Kuroi
Bungaku Shoujo as Touko Amano
Darker Than Black Ryuusei No Gemini as Suou Pavlichenko
Deadman Wonderland as Shiro

Durarara!! as Anri Sonohara
Guilty Crown as Ayase Shinomiya

IS: Infinite Stratos as Charlotte Dunois
Ore No Imouto Ga Konnani Kawaii Wake Ga Nai as Ruri Gokou
Pandora Hearts as Sharon Rainsworth
Steins;Gate as Shiina Mayuri


Rie Kugimiya

Dragon Crisis! as Rose

Fairy Tail as Happy

Familiar Of Zero as Louise Francoise Le Blanc De La Valliere

Fullmetal Alchemist as Alphonse Elric

Gintama as Kagura

Hayate The Combat Butler as Nagi Sanzenin

Hidan No Aria as Kanzaki H. Aria

Hyakka Ryouran Samurai Girls as Sanada Yukimura

Nabari No Ou as Miharu Rokujo

Shakugan No Shana as Shana

The iDOLM@STER as Iori Minase

Toradora! as Aisaka Taiga

Umineko No Naku Koro Ni as Shannon


Marina Inoue

Boku Wa Tomodachi Ga Sukunai as Yozora Mikazuki

Gurren Lagann as Yoko

Highschool Of The Dead as Rei Miyamoto

IS: Infinite Stratos as Laura Bodewig

Kampfer as Natsuru Senou

Mahou Sensei Negima! as Koutaro Inugami

Minami-ke as Kana Minami

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei as Chiri Kitsu

Sekirei as Tsukiumi

Umineko No Naku Koro Ni as Ushiromiya Jessica

Yakitate!! Japan as Shigeru Kanmuri


Yukari Tamura

Air as Michiru

B Gata H Kei as Yamada

C3 as Fear Kubrick

Da Capo as Sakura Yoshino

Galaxy Angel as Ranpha Franboise

Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni as Rika Furude

Kanon as Mai Kawasumi

Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha as Nanoha Takamichi

Moetan as Nijihara Ink

Myself;Yourself as Shuri Wakatsuki

Naruto as Tenten

Steins;Gate as Suzuha Amane


Aya Hirano

Akane-Iro Ni Somaru Saka as Minato Nagase

Bungaku Shoujo as Miu Asakura

Death Note as Misa Amane

Dragonaut - The Resonance as Garnet McLane

Eyeshield 21 as Mamori Anezaki

Fairy Tail as Lucy Heartfilia

Kiddy Grade as Lumiere

Lucky Star as Konata Izumi

Nurarihyon No Mago as Kana Ienaga

Seikon No Qwaser as Ekaterina Kurae

Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu as Suzumiya Haruhi

Zettai Karen Children as Kaoru Akashi


Haruka Tomatsu

Ano Hi Mita Hana No Namae Wo Bokutachi Wa Mada Shiranai as Naruko Anjou

Asura Cryin' as Misao Minakami

Basquash! as Rogue

C as Msyu

Kannagi as Nagi

Moetan as Sumi Kuroi

Sora No Manimani as Hime Makita

To-Love-Ru as Lala Satalin Deviluke

White Album as Mana Mizuki

Zettai Karen Children as Shiho Sannomiya


Mamiko Noto

Clannad as Kotomi Ichinose

Elfen Lied as Yuka

Freezing as Satellizer El Bridget

Girls Bravo as Yukinari Sasaki

Jigoku Shoujo as Ai Enma

Kimi Ni Todoke as Sawako Kuronuma

Kurogane No Linebarrels as Emi Kizaki

Mahou Sensei Negima! as Nodoka Miyazaki

Nogizaka Haruka No Himitsu as Haruka Nogizaka

School Rumble! as Yakumo Tsukamoto

To Aru Majutsu No Index as Aisa Himegami

Trinity Blood as Esther Blanchett


Yui Horie

Da Capo as Kotori Shirakawa

Fairy Tail as Carla

Fruit Basket as Tohru Honda

Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni as Hanyuu

Kampfer as Akane Mishima

Kanon as Ayu Tsukimiya

Nurarihyon No Mago as Tsurara Oikawa

Persona 4 The Animation as Chie Satonaka

School Rumble as Eri Sawachika

Sister Princess as Sakuya

Spiral as Rio Takeuchi

Toradora! as Kushieda Minori

Umineko No Naku Koro Ni as Ushiromiya Maria

Vampire Knight as Yuuki Cross


Hikasa Youko

Code:Breaker as Sakura Sakurakouji

Highschool DxD as Rias Gremory

IS: Infinite Stratos as Houki Shinonono

K-On! as Mio Akiyama

Kore Wa Zombie Desu Ka? as Seraphim

Moshidora as Minami Kawashima

Ro-Kyu-Bu! as Saki Nagatsuka

Seikon No Qwaser as Hana Katsuragi

Seitokai Yakuindomo as Shino Amakusa

Working!! as Izumi Takanashi


Maaya Sakamoto

Arakawa Under The Bridge as Nino

Canaan as Alphard Alshaya

Clover as Suu

Final Fantasy Advent Children as Aerith Gainsborough

Kara No Kyoukai as Shiki Ryougi

Kuroshitsuji as Ciel Phantomhive

Mobile Suit Gundam Seed Destiny as Lunamaria Hawke

Nisemonogatari as Shinobu Oshino

Ouran Highschool Host Club as Haruhi Fujioka

RahXephon as Reika Mishima


Minori Chihara

C3 as Konoha Muramasa

Dragonaut: The Resonance as Toa

Druaga No Tou: Aegis Of Uruk as Coopa

Ga-Rei Zero as Kagura Tsuchimiya

Kyoukai Senjou No Horizon as Horizon Ariadust

Minami-ke as Chiaki Minami

Seikon No Qwaser as Teresa Beria

Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu as Yuki Nagato

Tenjou Tenge as Aya Natsume

Venus Versus Virus as Sumire Takahana


Aki Toyosaki

Beezlebub as Aoi Kunieda

Hanasaku Iroha as Nako Oshimizu

Ichiban Ushiro No Daimaou as Keena Soga

K-On! as Hirasawa Yui

Medaka Box as Medaka Kurokami

Seiken No Blacksmith as Lisa

Seikon No Qwaser as Tomo Yamanobe

Shugo Chara! as Su

To Aru Kagaku No Railgun as Uiharu Kazari

UN-GO as Inga


Eri Kitamura

Ao No Exorcist as Izumo Kamiki

Blood+ as Saya Otonashi

C3 as Kirika Ueno

Chaos;Head as Rimi Sakihata

Highschool Of The Dead as Saya Takagi

Kodomo No Jikan as Rin Kokonoe

Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica as Sayaka Miki

Mayo Chiki! as Kanade Suzutsuki

Nisemonogatari as Karen Araragi

Papa No Iukoto Wa Kikinasai! as Miu Takanashi

Toradora! as Ami Kawashima

Working!! as Todoroki Yachiyo


Asami Imai

Kuttsuiboshi as Kiiko Kawakami

Megane No Kanojo as Aya Ichinohe

Shukufuku No Campanella as Chelsea Arcot

Steins;Gate as Makise Kurisu

The iDOLM@STER as Chihaya Kisaragi


Well, it doesn't mean that all of the seiyuu's that I've listed above are the best, just wanna say that those are my favorites.. There may be much better/high caliber seiyuu than the one that I had listed..

Like I said, uh.. well, never mind..

I guess I've tried my best to make one post without a gloomy atmosphere.. well, this is it~

Hope you all enjoyed it.. I'll try updating it if there's anything new about seiyuu.. maybe info about seiyuu~ maybe~ I guess~



Reality.. or illusion.......