illusion

Yea, my entire life's better be an illusion rather than reality.. fucking harsh cold reality....

So much that I hate it when my reality could be broken into pieces JUST-LIKE-THAT [FULL STOP]

Everything that I had enough up until now..

Sins that I've made up until now..

Life are so full of lies and everything..

Pain are such an annoyance.. wish to get rid of it....

Ignorance is something that I couldn't tolerate at all, so fuck with it..

Death is not something we could avoid, and in the end.. we will....

Friendship is something that I just couldn't trust.. I just can't.. screw the friendship.. all of it are just SICK LIES!

Hatred is what I've always keep in myself for my entire life.. sounds stupid, huh? But it's the truth....

Sadness always accompany me, no offense..

Heartless is my mask.. figure it out yourself..

Feelings.... fuck, I'm not going to say anything about this.. you should know it better than me..

Oblivious....

Oblivious.. since when?

Damn it, guess my mind's messed up now..

.... since when?

Damn it.. screw everything....

That's why, illusion.. is much better for me rather than those fucked-up reality..

I made no sense with what I'm talking about right now, correct?

But I know myself better than any of you whose reading this right now..

Fuck with that.. I don't think anyone would read this.. no one....

....... just, no one.......

Right..? Right!?

Screw it.. I'm the only one who would understand everything that I wrote up until now.. again..

Such an egoistical jerk I am.. right..? Right!?

No one understand me.. just, no one....

Damn it.. I hate this reality..

I wish for an illusion where someone would understand me.. cared deeply about me..

No one.. just no one, in reality that would do that for me..

I can bet that she would say "why the fuck should I do that for you!?"

True, she would say that.. plus with "we are not best friend or anything like that, so why the fuck should I!?"

Yep, totally.. I know she would say that to me if she reads this..

Not my other self, but someone that I know.. in this reality....
I cared for them, and this is how they repay me their kindness?
Thank you.. really..

Forget it..

I just wished for an illusion world where I could live peacefully..

Since no one will intrude me..

No one..

Just, no one....

Reality.. or illusion....