Split Personality

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Welcome.. to the other side of me..

Well, not really.. I got you..

But I know all of you was wandering about the title post this time right?

.... not really?

Uh.. okay....

Anyway, I want to tell something to you..

That; the last five posts~ except for the Untitled>feelings..

Which is, Heartless, Sadness, Hatred and Friendship..

You need to know something about it..

I didn't.. I didn't write it..

My other self did..

Another entity that was living inside of me..

Very similar to me yet so far away from me..

Well, how should I say..

.... um, wait a minute..

If you don't believe this, don't read or it will irritates you.. trust me..

Like, who the hell would tell everyone that he/she had a split-personality.. right?

So, that's why..

Let's continue..

I was thinking.. like, when she talked to me..

Yea, she did..

I'm a pessimist and she's an optimist.. that's.. a total different personality..

I always heard from people.. that's our split-personality would be the opposite of us..

I know that.. but this is, something like.. uh.. hm.. so different..

For example, positive to negative.. or negative to even more negative/worse..

But.. me? Negative to positive..

Totally unheard of..

Hm.. yea, strange..

She.. I know her, and have resided inside of me for..  5 years already..

She always told me..

"I will always be with you, and help you with everything I could.."

Uh.. forever?

But she didn't answer that back..

I wonder.. why..?

Again, you might feel something's not right?

The posts that I'd mentioned before..

You know, "Heartless", "Sadness", "Hatred" and "Friendship"..

This is just so out of the blue..

She was an optimist personality..

But why she did write something so.. negative..?

Something that even I couldn't believe.. right..

She scares me...

I asked her.. "Why? Why wrote something like that?"

And I didn't expect her answer to turn out like this..

"Everything's for you.."

It startled me..

I don't want to think about this for now..

Leave me alone..

Say.... right?

Reality.. or illusion....

Untitled>feelings

And you'll think for a moment.. Untitled>feelings? What's that?

Anyway, it's been a month I haven't write anything for my blog..

Just in a month.. so many things..

Things getting quite serious for me, and of course; it's about my life..

E eto.... chotto matte.......

So it would be like a journal, about my life..

That doesn't sounds bad.. but it's not like my life is interesting though.. lots of things so.. you know..

Anyway, let's continue..

Recently, been so down.. no place of hope for me to talked with..

School.. friends.. teacher..

School really tearing me apart..

Friend.. no one that I can call "friend".. all just sneaky little rats..

Teacher.. they never understood me..

This is weird.. I did cry a moment ago..

And just by the fourth paragraph I'd already went sentimental?

This isn't like me..

But then, this is the real me..

If I could redo my life.. Samsara..

I would just simply pull the black trigger and turned this life of mine into bullets of insanity..

Reality.. or illusion....