Ignorance

The fifth post should be about "Death".. but I guess I'll post "Ignorance" first..

Naze kana~ .......well, things happened, I guess~

 
How do you feel when someone is ignoring you? Or how could you tell when someone was having a mixed feeling when they were being ignored? Some people might actually take notice for it, and some would act like nothing happened at all..

Wonder what they would try to do if they took notice about people ignoring them..

Revenge? Or the other way around..?
Honestly, for me it hurts.. you cared about them, but what they did for you is just keep ignoring you.. Not all ignorance can lead to bad things, a few of it can be good.. but mostly, bad.. yeah.... I've been ignored.. I mean like; everyone did experienced once right? Though some cases aren't intentional, it feels like you were left out from the group/conversation..

What about on purpose then? Doesn't it hurts you? Doesn't it makes you feel sad?

I've grown to it, so sometimes I would just pay no heed to it too..

At times ago, I've got into fight with my friends just because of this..

And I realize that sometimes, there's no point of arguing about this kind of thing..

It made us look stupid.. care for me to repeat that line again?

IT MADE US LOOK LIKE SOME KIND OF FREAKING IDIOT

Saigo ni~ I think there's no point in writing about this.. should write about death..

But I still did it.. d'uh.. I feel like a moron now..

And I bet that no one would actually cares to read my posts.. or even view my blog..

Let's just return to the place where we belongs to....

Reality.. or illusion....

Pain

Itami ga kuru.. koko de....

That just came out from nowhere.. whatever comes in my mind, I'll write it..

Though the truth is a bit different from what I've said just now.. iie, sore o wasurete, ne?

I've been thinking for a while.. what really makes us feel the pain..?

And where do exactly we feel the pain? Explaining it won't be enough; but to feel the pain, it needs something that what is called "strong will" ~osoraku, watashi wa omou~ I'm not so sure about it, I just feel it..

Unpleasant feelings, in general is what can be stated for the meaning of the pain.. something like an emotional experiences.. Ta-to-e-ba~ physical pain.. people should already know about this, so; no need for explanation okay? And what I really want to talk about isn't about this kind of pain.. it's something more, deeper.. something more abstract..

Let me ask you all something.. what can you describe about the feeling of pain..? Can you tell me?

Pain comes from being betrayed by friends, or someone close to you?

Pain that comes from being lied? Pain that comes from ignorance? Pain that comes from heartbroken?

Pain that comes from sadness? Hatred? Love? Or.... reality and illusion?

Tch.. this hurts.. it's painful, just telling you all about this..

"In this endless world,  final words resound loud and clear."

"Surreal than distant."

"Scream out your voice as innocence fade away"

~lyrics taken from a song, not my own words..

It got into me, so painful it hurts.. it fucking hurts..

To think about it again, "surreal than distant...."

Reality.. or illusion....

Life

It's just like the title of my blog..

Why life now? I wonder.. well.. whatever crossed my mind, I’ll write it.. or rather, I feel like writing whatever comes up on my mind.. and that; if I have motivation.. and now that I have motivation, it’s time for me to.. uh, somehow I feel like repeating the same words..
Sigh.. never mind, forget it....

Life.. okay....
Seriously I don’t really know what’s the meaning of life.. but somehow I’ll try to manage and write about it.. um, okay?

Um.. well, I’ve been thinking about my life recently ~sore wa so subete no jikan jissai ni~
I’ve been wondering what is the true goal of my life.. Sometimes, I do ever wonder if I really did existed.. I look at myself.. I tried pricked my finger.. ouch, it hurts.. Okay, so that proves that I’m alive.. but I’m still wondering if I really do existed for real.. what maybe if I’m actually controlled by someone.. Like I’m a puppet in someone’s story.. Wait, that’s just no good either..

I look around myself.. well, I'm standing on the Earth.. okay..

I can walk.. okay..

I can talk.. okay..

I can see.. okay..

I can hear.. quite....

I can feel.. not sure.. maybe okay.. or maybe just quite..

I can feel "something else".. hm.... absolutely yes..

I meant it..

I'm not lying.. honestly, sometimes I can feel something else.. it's like a sixth sense..

And I do have ESP.......well, kinda..

When I'm trying to look for the info about the meaning of life, I found that it's a philosophical question concerning the reason and significance of life.. or existence in all-purpose..

Consciousness is the most important thing I'd learned myself about the meaning of life.. without it, our life would be in a total catastrophe....

I hate this life of mine.. and I never liked it from the beginning..

Reality.. or illusion....