Hatred

Now I got this weird topic for the post..

I really don't know.. but I'm sure that's what I feel right now..

Let me ask you all something.. what would you do when hatred builds up inside you?

How would you let off the steam? Tch, I already went for the straight point.. oh well..

Hatred.. intense feeling of dislike.. sounds like an anger; too.. It's always associated with negative issues.. well yeah, of course since hatred doesn't lead us to good thing.. Um.. wait, my other self told me that not all hatred leads to bad things for a reason.. I wonder about that.. she said that, "hatred is one of our inevitable emotion, but we can avoid it.."
 
Wait....
Avoid it?

Just like that..
....... just like that?

I'm trying not to be philosophical but, damn.. I can't help with it..

Hatred, from what I can say.. it's like a pain due to an external cause.. something that cannot be defined, something so bad that feels like irreducible feeling..

D'uh.. never mind, I think I've stated something so complicated.. even I couldn't fathom it..

Back to the point.. it's not just recently.. but always, the entire life of mine, I felt it..

This.. hatred feeling, inside of me.. have been a resident living inside of me..

Sigh.. I sounded like an emotional, idiotic person.. well at least it's true.......

My best friend always told & advice me not to keep the hatred feeling inside of me for a long time, cuz it will turn into grudges.. well, it did.... I'm feeling it.. it hurts..

I feel hatred to anyone..
Parent..
Friends..
Love.. yeah, sure I would feel that way too even though it's love.. hatred....
Except for one.. no, two.. yea.. there's two, that I can't let that feeling of hatred to.... One is for sure and the other one, I just can't.. there's no reason I should..

This feeling of hatred.. I wish it could be turned into something else..
Maybe despair.. or sadness....
That's better....
Yea, that's just better....

I hate this life of mine, again....
Yea, I never liked it from the beginning.......

Tears flowing out from my eyes when I finished writing this..




Reality.. or illusion....